I don't really know how to start this blogpost for once. I don't really know where this is going either, I just need to get this out of my mind.
I was underweight my entire life. People would always tell me things like "gosh you're so skinny" " are you on a diet?" "why do you eat so little" "I'm so scared to break your bones" " I feel like if you go out when it's too windy the wind will take you away" "you should force yourself to eat more".
At the age of 15 my mum brought me to the doctor for one of those check up you have to do every year or something. I can remember this day as if it happened yesterday. He measured and weighted me and of course told me that I should eat more because I was underweighted. I didn't know what to do. Eat more? yes, but I am not hungry. I never wanted to force myself. I ate until I was completely full and that was it. I wasn't skipping any meal, I ate like everyone else. I was just not able to eat as much as everyone else. Everyone more or less close to me know that I still don't eat a lot.
At some point I tried to eat a lot of crap. Chocolate, biscuits, anything full of sugar. Everyone knows that sugar makes you fat right? That wasn't working at all. All it was doing was giving me hundreds of blemishes and spots.
I eventually gave up on it. I convinced myself that I was skinny because my dad is also skinny and this might be genetic. Whenever someone will tell me that I was too skinny or that they were scared to break my bone by touching me (because yes I do hear this a lot) I would just politely smile at them and ignore what they just said to me.
Inside that "eating problem" followed me every single day of my life. Going to restaurants or at people's place is a massive stress and challenge. I know that I won't be able to finish the meal, I know that everyone will be looking and judging me for wasting food. I know that I will feel bad for not being able to eat just like everyone else. I am always asking for help to finish off my meals. Eventually I learnt to live with it. I got use to it, it became part of me.
I never asked for help concerning this "problem", I never talked to anyone, never told this story to anyone. Why? I know what they will tell me. Force yourself to eat more. I know that, I tried. I can't.
I moved to Australia when I was 18, I was 162 cm and I weighted 41KG when I was suppose to weight between 49 and 56KG.
A while ago I decided to forget about all of this, forget about the number on the scale and just try to be healthy. I started cooking my own meal, I do workouts, I try new things out and be as healthy as possible. Not long ago I decided to stop eating meat. That is obviously very personal but I don't think humans should be eating meat. I therefore needed to find substitutes, I changed my eating habits and without noticing it I started gaining weight. It is slow (extremely slow) and I am still underweight but now I feel comfortable with my body. I am happy and no one will take that away from me. I feel proud of myself for gaining 3KG which seems like nothing to most people but it means the world to me.
I am not writing this to show off, there are millions of stories 100 times more impressing than mine. But if I can manage to convince at least one person out there to forget about people's perception and focus on being healthy, all of this will be worth it.
Skinny does not mean pretty, Skinny does not mean ugly. A 6 packs does not mean healthy. What you put in your body, what you have on your mind this is what determines how healthy you are.
I don't know how many people are still reading this, but if you are, know that what is important is to know that you made the effort of being healthy. Not the number on the scale.
Thank you for your precious time.
ps: I apologies for any spelling or grammar error.
Posts
8 comments:
Now he can [ I am gonna assume a male character for doctor by populated stats male docs run most hospitals round the world- in China you will suprised they do NOT need US med students to work in their hospitals or international med student because they prefer and hire Chinese males and they are control the population for a nuclear family nevertheless that has changed this month now you can have 2 children per family yahooooooooooo..... in China ] but anyways all that aside
Onto the STORY- if you want beautiful baby boys and girls start taking iodine
for basic health doctors these days are realizing 2)vitamin D3 [ the one you get from walking in the sun- skin makes vitamin D
from cholesterol by sun ultra violet B rays otherwise vitamin D is inactive in liver & kidney as a hormone needed for calcium
chemical process ]; walk in sun about 20 minutes or more or take 5000 International Units [ IU ] then reduce dose after two weeks to your weight and height like 90 lbs takes 2000 IU then check blood level for D3 in serum [ blood plasma { yellow liquid that holds blood cells } like proteins, electrolytes, antibodies, antigens, hormones, and other substances ] which should between 50 to 70 nanograms/ mililiter mostly for bone and complete health you get D3 during middle of day, if you live closer to equator Perth, Australia is south of equator which is south of Indonesia lies on the equator most likely you have less sun exposure and need to supplement with vitamin D3 however northern Australia
3)probiotics: Dr Ohhira brand compared to other brands have good live bacteria versus other brand whose good bacteria get killed in stomach acid and does not get absorbed
4) natural multivitamin such as Nature's Multi-vitamin by Pure Hawaiian Spirulina pacifica take 12.5 miligrams of iodine supplements by iodine loading test [ test only if you have to otherwise one pill of 12.5mg will do fine but others take 4 pills which has side effects like salivation ] Iodine/Iodide in proper amounts excretes toxins like heavy metals such as lead, mercury [ tuna ], aluminum, toxic halides like 1)fluoride 2)bromide 3)chloride so if the flour in USA is brominated usually the flour worldwide may also be brominated
bromine blocks iodine uptake
one patient had heart disease for 25 years so he STOPPED going to hospital and went to HOLISTIC medical doctor and found out he was low on iodine loading test in 7 days his symtoms reduced no LONGER a heart patient !!!!!
iodine is found in trillions of cells in the body
iodine is needed for thyroid hormone
iodine is responsible for all other hormones of the body
iodine is necessary for proper immune system function
iodine is antibacterial, antiviral, antiparasitic, and anticancer
1.5 billion people live in iodine lacking area according to World Health Organization
iodine lack can result in mental problems [ like IQ whether you make it to med school or not; socioeconomic decline ]
iodine lack leads to increased child and infant deaths [ SIDS = sudden infant death syndrome ]
if the soil has enough iodine levels, the crops grown on that soil will have enough iodine levels
every cell in the body has and uses iodine
iodine mostly found in glands [ salivary glands, thyroid gland, cerebrospinal fluid and the brain, stomach, choroid plexus { blood
vessels in parts of brain and produces cerebrospinal fluid }, breasts, ovaries, eye, adrenals [ on kidney ]
you can get iodine from seaweed [ we get it here called kombu or edible seaweed ]
iodine is NOT present in adequate amounts in most foods
specific plants absorb iodine when it is present in the soil
iodine is mostly in ocean foods like fish [ cod, sea bass, haddock, perch... ] and sea vegetables [ seaweed ]
iodine can be found in animals by adding iodine to animal feed [ I will not go on about humans eating meat ]
iodine is added to table salt at 100 parts per million as potassium iodide, which is 77 mircograms of iodine/gram; and due to low-salt diet and low-salt foods people do NOT get iodine
dairy products, eggs, and meat may contain iodine if iodine is added to the feed of animals
I am not saying iodine is need here for underweight
despite the skinny, iodine is involved in metabolism
lack of iodine is coupled with other problems that involves weight issues in peeps
like overweight/underweight at a young or old age
hormones are NOT known for their characteristics as of yet since research might be behind
what you have on your mind..... spiritual growth controls physical health far above supplements like for example Holocaust survivors lived off soup & bread for years
ps: apologies accepted for grammatical errors lol
I did say in previous blog on autumn edition in breakfast ideas that I have never added milk to egg
and that I will post results soon I did not ..... so I apologizeeeeeeeee
its days end
its years end
someones waiting for you
Post a Comment